I am 30 years old, so I have had my share of relationships in the past. While my choice is to no longer pursue them, at least at this time, everyone needs social interaction and closeness to others in different ways in order to survive in this world. I am a very extroverted, social, and communicative person, so I fill in my gaps with family and friends. Sometimes I think I know what I'm doing, and sometimes I wonder what I should be doing differently. While it has always been a perplexing part of life for me, it has been my path with its ups and downs, and I have definitely enjoyed the journey. I'm sure it helps feed my selfishness to an extent as well, as I get to focus on myself more than most people do.
Continuing along this path, I realize this means that I will not have any children of my own. Starting a family is one of the main reasons people have relationships. I have contemplated this decision many times, but I feel as though it is in tune with my direction in life. Either way, I never claimed to have the answer; I just trust that God will direct me where he wants me to go. I'm aware there are many different ways to look at this situation, and that is why our need for God is very evident. There is no way I could sort all of that out! I need his help, just like with everything else, and everything provided to me is from him.
Relationships aren't the only thing failing in this world. I just chose to write about them because I had certain things I wanted to say regarding my personal experiences. I see so many people hurting from relationships because there is not the right bond formed due to our whole world losing focus on what constitutes a true relationship. Divorce rates are always increasing, and you hear about all these murders and tragic family situations. Don't get me wrong. I know there are many people who have great relationships. The only problem with that is some of them haven't yet withstood the test of time just yet. As the years go by, the statistics get worse for these same relationships in question. The people are getting older, and something gives. I honor the older couples we see today that are still together. My great-grandmother is still alive, and she was married to her husband almost her whole life before he died in 2008. These are the relationships from back when that we should model our own after, but I'm telling you they're going to be hard to find in a few years.